Life still the same…

Yeah, its been a long time that I didnt blog. So sorry, too lazy and no mood to update…

What have I been doing? Just spending time wait for my birthday to come and after that I got to prepare myself to get enlist on 12 June. Fast right? What to do…

My birthday day is on 23 May, and my mum got me a chalet on 20 to 22 May. We cant get the weekend slots because it is too last mintue… So yeah. But I still celebrating on 23 May and also 24 May… You guys must be saying that I am mad, celebrating for 5 days… I know, but I going to enlist soon, so I wanna enjoy all the way!

And guess what! On the 21st May, I got to go for shooting for Jack Neo’s upcoming movie. Although is a very small role, but at least I am one step closer to reach my goal! hahahas. Give me sometime, and I will create a name and career for myself!

Times passes very fast, and I am still single… Going through the same thing like going round and round and round… Yes, is hurtful but what can I do? The person I want will never want me back as much as I do… They all just have the same motive when they hook me… After that? Say byebye to me… Yeah, terrible right? But this is what I am going through for the past two years…

Now what I wish for is to celebrate my birthday happily and go in NS and give myself a extreme makeover! I sooo going to keep myself busy in camp and train my body! I sooo want to change for the better! Give me sometime, and you will drool! HAHAHS. You guys will say, “ya ya ya, stop dreaming!” But I am serious this time round… I SWEAR!

Okay, I shall update next time round after my birthday! All the best to you guys!

I want you, would you settle down with me? =(

Cant sleep well for past one week…

The moment I lie on my bed, my fatigue disappears…
Once I closed my eyes, I only see my troubles in the darkness…
Simply just roll here and there on my bed, could not fall asleep…

This is happening to me during the past one week. I been able to sleep only til 5 or 6 am in the morning. I guess I think too much this past few days… I just cannot handle all these by myself. Why is it so?

Maybe I should give myself more time to let go of certain stuffs…

Quite awhile…

It’s been a quite awhile I didn’t blog…

I had problems with my internet connection…

Sometime can online in msn but then couldn’t access to my internet explorer.

WTH laaa!

I think my comp going to be dead… TIME FOR REPAIR! or maybe…

I WANT A NEW LAPTOP!!! hahahas…

I MISS YOU, SERIOUSLY!

Hope things are going well for you man=)

Jealousy occurred…

I should realised that I will be expecting the feeling of jealousy within me.

I simply do not have the control over it; I do not know how to overcome it.

The moment you told me that you miss him alot, alot, alot and alot… I was like… Anyway, I will take it slowly, I guess…

Love…

When you realise that you want to spend your rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible…

BUT…

It takes a minute to like someone, an hour to love someone but a lifetime to forget someone…

Love Is In The Eyes…

When I First Met You

Since the first time I met you,
I couldn’t seem to forget you
and lately I seem to find,
that you’re always on my mind.

I feel so happy around you
and I thank God that I found
you
at first I thought of you as
a really good friend,
but I realized that my feelings
now is different

When I see you smile,
It makes my life worth while,
and since the very start,
you have been in my heart

I’ve never felt this way
before,
and honestly that is for sure
I’m so glad that we did meet
but I know that you will
not be mine,
But you stepped in my life
and I can’t get you out now
because the love stays.

You’re The One

You’re the one that makes me smile
You’re the one that’s just my style

You’re the one I dream of every night
You’re the one I want to hold you so tight

You’re the one I think of when I wake
You’re the one I know it’s no mistake

You’re the one who I can lean on to
You’re the one my eyes have always seen

You’re the one who touches my soul
You’re the one who makes me whole

You’re the one that gives me butterflies
You’re the one that’s an angel from the skies

You’re the one who takes my breath away
You’re the one I want to stay

You’re the one I’ve wanted all my life
You’re the one I wish to be by your side
You’re the one God made for me
You’re the one that will forever in my heart be

Do I Stand A Chance

I’ve written this poem a thousand times
in my mind
But even there, it doesn’t seem right
Maybe it’s because we are two worlds
apart
But I guess true love is hard to
find
If it were possible I have get the
earth,
the stars which I love so much
and the moonlight for you,
but the earth is too big,
stars too far,
And the moonlight is impossible to catch.
What I’d give you is no worth much,
but it is ever lasting and is more valuable than anything else I can give,
My Undying Love,
And wishes for your dreams to come true,
But if mine did too,
Would you let me keep you?

No Hurry

A whisper in the night
A gentle breeze across the skin
As the night goes on
Into the darkness – contemplation begins

Enveloped by silence
Thoughts and ideas arise
Followed by feelings initiated
By the innocent look in your eyes

Unable to speak
Unable to think
Can’t miss a day, a moment
Not a second, unable to blink

The scent of your hair opens my eyes
The whisper of your voice opens my ears
The touch of your hand against my skin
Abruptly chases away all of my fears

Lost in a swirl of feelings
Blinded by beautiful light
Drawn in by a new love
Never felt something so right

Smiles, laughter, comfort
Happiness, trust, devotion
Start of something excellent
Long sought after emotions

All I’ve ever wanted is to have someone my own
With you in my arms, I’m beginning to feel
As if it’s possible to be in love
As if it’s possible for this to be real

Searched I have
And yet I haven’t found
You came to me, thankfully
Making my world go around

My life is yours
You need not worry
You may take your time, but,
I’ll be here, I’m in no hurry…

Truly…

The lightning strikes,

the thunder roars,

rain starts to fall down heavily…

It totally explains my feelings right now. My love for you had developed, striking me to confess to you… But is just happened always at the wrong timing, and I started crying again…

It just so hard to love someone and to be with that someone. I guess this is the time where I really understand that love can be very simple but yet complicated. It is about trust, communication, luck, understanding and most importantly timing… This time round I had lost to time=(

I thought I could give you all my love to you but you chosen to give your ex one more chance. I respected your decision but at the same time I am beaten down to the bottom of the pit again… All I can say is no matter what happens, I will still support you in whatever you do.

“我愛的人　不是我的愛人 他心裡每一寸　都屬於另一個人”

P.S I am truly in love with you…

I still lost…

我爱的人

Shall ask nothing but feel my emotions through this music…

and you will know how I feel…

Thinking of you…

Today went to meet up with Kiro, Kelvin, Xiao Min, Terrence and Jim at Cineleisure. Kiro came to find me at Redhill Station first, accompanying me to Raffles Place do somethings first before heading to Cineleisure.

Kiro danced at the Para-Para in Cineleisure’s arcade, I was like “WOW”… I must respect him for the courage to danced in the public. If were me, I wouldn’t dare… HAHAHS!

We was like rotting at Cineleisure, smoking and chatting. Terrence and Jim left first as they going to club later. So the rest of us went to E2-Max to catch bear. HAHAHS! And guess what! …

I got this cute bear after trying so many times which cost me 6 BUCKS! OMG la!

Anyway I do had fun with them, just that certain moments of the night, I am bothered with some stuffs.

Thanks Kelvin, Kiro and XiaoMin!

Off I go to listen to song!

*Not in the mood le!

Having second thoughts…

It is so obvious that I do not deserve a chance at all.

Tried to ask you out, but you said you tired. Realizing you meeting your ex for movie when wanna ask you out for supper. You suddenly text me regarding about the pay, saying that you running out of cash. I had the urge to find cash for you at that moment to pass you first. But I couldn’t so I felt guilty that I couldn’t help you. That is the only time you text me automatically. I don’t know whether  am I thinking too much or what… But seriously, you gave me a feeling that I am just a friend to you, making me feel that you will not be interested in me if  I confess to you.

ARGH!

I currently having a second thoughts whether should I confess to you or not…because I am scared of rejection. I know you told me before to prepared for rejections because it will be very hurtful if I didn’t. But the situation now is really confusing me! For my own feelings, I know that this time round is not a rebound but truly falling in love with you.

Oh God! Please tell me what to do! I am in dilemma now=(

Or rather,

Can you just tell me whether do I deserve a chance?

I don’t expect myself to be with you but want you to give me a chance to go through with you what you are going through right now. I know is hard for you to start anew and commit yourself again… but I seriously want to…

feel your warmth beside me…

have you by my side…

stand by you always when you in need…

hear that you will give me a chance…

stay in your heart forever…

and…

LOVE YOU!

Please give me confidence and courage to try it out… Please….